That awkward moment That REALLY awkward moment when you go downstairs to get some water after having really loud sex, and you accidentally drop the water bottle, letting out a little “Oh!”, and your guy roommate busts out laughing. 

Everyone, whether they will admit it or not, cares to some degree what people think of them. Yeah, you can have that “IDGAF attitude”, but, to some degree, everyone cares at least a little about their reputation. Everyone has done things that they regret. Everyone has enemies. Everyone has something in their past that determines what one, ten, 100, 1000  people think of them, and it affects them, whether they like it or not. I know there are tons of people who hate me. And for the most part, i do not give a single fuck about it. But at the same time, now, there things i cant do, places i cant go, without worrying about seeing those people, worrying about.. not being wanted. Who wants to be in a room full of people who despise them? No one.
And then, i heard a concept, from..someone, i cant remember who, or where, it just occured to me earlier. But i want you guys to think about it. The past: everything you have ever said, done, whatever. Every regret. Everything youre proud of, every accomplishment, every grudge, every failure, everything.. exists only in your mind. If it has already happenned, the only place it exists now, is in your own head. And your own mind, everything you think about, all your memories, everything, is under your own control. 
So i want everyone, all of you to do something. Think about all your mistakes, all of your regrets, all of the things youve done that you wish you hadnt, all the things youve said that you wish you hadnt, and get rid of them. Its your mind. Whats done is done. Now, if you want, make mental notes, if you want to make an apology, make ammends, pay someone back, do the right thing, for the sake of that reputation that i mentioned earlier, that i KNOW you care about, then do it. But otherwise, forget it all. 
Your past, exists only in your mind. And your mind is in no one else’s control, but your own. Forget the hate. Forget the pride. Forget the shame. Forget it all. 
Do you know what its like to be able to walk up to the one person who once hated you more than anything, shake their hand, and know that whatever the problem was, is gone. All those problems, every discomfort in your life, gone. I cant wait to find out. Im starting tomorrow. And i already feel so much more at ease.
Take that to bed with you everyone. Give it a shot, and let me know how it makes you feel.